005.

so it was exactly a year ago today i packed up my suitcase and moved to the portland area. i've done a lot of new, exciting things in a year: i lived with friends! i went on an official date! i dated a boy! i drove on the freeway! i successfully drove in an actual city! i started therapy! i met people from the internetz! i moved into a studio apartment! and although a lot of those things didn't end very well, i did them. and that's a lot. i have probably never cried so much in a year, but i've also never done so much. i'm thrilled to be living in a place i love, working on myself and growing as a person. i can't wait to see what adventures i go on in the next year.

i am a walking cliche as of late, but i don't mind. also, i am listening to the gossip and it is making everything a dance party. nah, nah, nah nahhh...meeeen in looove!

004.

i have been feeling really impulsive lately. i know this happens after you get your heart broken; you chop off your hair or get your nose pierced or finally make out with that hot guy who works at whole foods or something. but i thought i already did all that [hello tattoo one and two!]. and it's been like five months now. maybe it's not even connected to my heart. but i just feel like doing something completely opposite from what i usually do. i just don't know what that thing will be.

all i know is that right now i have the camera obscura line relationships are something i used to do/convince me they are better for me and you stuck in my head. and i'm thinking about love and stuff and how i won't take it for granted anymore.

yeah. i'm having one of those days. a "chick flick heroine realizes things" days. it happens. i swear i am going to be cooking and wearing fancy clothes and knitting things soon! stick with me until then.

003.

i always heard that tattoos were addictive, but i never quite understood the degree to which they are until i got one myself.

aka hello, tattoo no. three!

002.

today i added "single-sized juice carafe" to my "pointless things i must buy" list. adorableness almost always trumps functionality.

001.

things haven't been going so great for me lately. 2010, in general, has seemed to have a hidden agenda of socking me in the gut whenever possible. luckily for me, i am one of those annoying optimists that continues to believe that the sun will, in fact, come out tomorrow. bet your bottom dollar and everything. so last night i found myself making a list of things that make me happy. i'll continue to add to it, but for now, here's what i thought up. some of them are kind of twee, but a little bit of twee never hurt anyone, really.

-- homestyle dinners consisting of comfort food, eaten outside in the summer, lit by candlelight.
-- the sound of music, both the movie and the soundtrack.
-- watching roman holiday while painting my nails.
-- taking a bath while listening to the breakfast at tiffany's soundtrack.
-- baking bread.
-- reading the blue castle in winter under a blanket with a cup of tea. bonus points for snow, or a fire in the fireplace i don't currently have.
-- spending a rainy afternoon at a coffeehouse, pretending to be a hipster.
-- curling the crap out of my hair and then putting it into pigtails.
-- knee socks and sixties girl bands.
-- trying on dresses.
-- golden girls and cheesecake!

and that's all for today!

000. the beginning.

i am struggling with how i want to start this.

although.

in saying that. i guess i do a pretty decent job of starting things, if i'm honest. i've started dozens of blogs and diaries. i've attempted to start learning at least five different languages [dzien dobry! entschuldigen sie!] in the last five years. i really meant to finish making that hat i started months ago. or that scarf i started even longer ago. i've meant to and wanted to and tried to and all of those lovely words you say when you're very nicely and kindly making excuses for yourself. and i mean, i'm sure we've all been there.

but i don't know. maybe it would be nice to actually kind of sort of like, finish something, or something like that.

so here's the deal. i am going to do my very, very best to write in this blog every day for a year. every day! 365 days! and on october 10, 2011, i will have finished something, for really reals this time. it's a slightly daunting goal, but it's an internet goal. those are always fun.

so hi! and welcome. we'll be getting to know each other quite well, so pack a snack.

blogs.

an olive a day.
bonjour gazel.
curious fancy. 
fat nurse.
fatty unbound.
plus sized pretty.
queer fat femme.
we are large people.
young, fat and fabulous.

du mont royal ouest.
lolo holmes.